dec 19th 2011
23.12
wow
almost forgot again ...
yesterday and today xxx
looking at my calendar,it made me smile xxx
i have thought about it for a while
these two days and particularly, today :))
it made me smile..
the first time was when we first met,
then the second time when we went to that secret place...
and did a secret deed ;)
aside from the days we met in between...
it seems like the first time i laid eyes on him,
was just a dream...
i have lost all the written memories of the first time we arranged it..
but i remember he said he didnt want anything
thr than what he posted ...
i replied,no strings is fine by me...
and thats how it all started...
i have kept all the other messages i could save...
looking back,of the tracks we have shared together
it all seemed like yesterday..
all the things that had happened in between...
and all the things that had happend along the way,
i have never foreseen
that summer...was the best that i could have ever wanted..
if i think about it,it wasnt a lot of time,but they were best of times..
the uncertainty of us,meeting up
all the waiting and the anticipation of whatever the next
one will bring xxxx
the autumn went so quick,as he tried to make up for times
that were missed...it is the autumn that i finally admitted
what really is,how i felt about him,
i was so scared to admit...
but who wouldnt?
for someone who agreed,to things that are unconventional
to an agreement that i know i have to commit?
i felt all the emotions i never knew i had in me..
i was dreaming,i was floating,i was dizzy
i was excited...and happy and even felt i was free falling xxx
and all the time on the same day every month with out
realizing it,the days are moving on...
i keep telling myself this time every month..
how would it be next time ,
for next month?
with all the fear, all the uncertainty...
all the questions there is,
all i could think about is i want him and me to be happy :)
how funny,i got all the treat he bought me,
on this day delivered like it should be ...
oh,he bought half the company loool
i didnt know what to do when the guy handed the
massive box to me!!! haha!!!
i was excited to go home and see whats inside...
wow
everything was nice and cant wait to wear them
when the time is right ;))))
all the gestures he makes,all the time he spends..
all the effort he does they never go amiss..
of all the things that goes on around in our separate lives,
there were times he made me feel they were entiwned..
sometimes i think,what he must be doing?
where is he now,does he ever think of me and smile?
its going to be a long winter...
and all the good things that are coming that i cant wait to discover xxx
the christmas and new year are almost here...
and i hope with them brings all the wishes and happiness
that everyone expects this season to bring xxx
all the nice things under the tree,it only happens once a year
and its nice to see how everyone tries to give eveen small things
to make it special for those who are dear xxxx
this time next month,how would it be,
i wonder when i look back to this date ...
what are the good things and challenging things
i would see,read and learn from here xxxx
this time next month,it is the 6th month that we said we'd commit..
i wonder what will happen along the way,but i know,
whether it is good or not i must be ready for it xxxx
